Describe Your Fear
I am very afraid of death. It is constantly at the back of my mind. I am very scared of not knowing. I believe I will go to heaven but then I get afraid of the nothing. What if there is nothing? I know I won't know, but it gives me a sinking feeling in my chest when I try to grasp that I shouldn't worry of it. It makes me wonder how normal people don't worry about it. Then I think of deaths of people I know. Being only 18 I feel I have so much life ahead of me, yet I know people my age and younger who haven't lived their full life. I think my fear is the questioning of if there is nothing after life....
How I'm Coping
...I also fear I may be cheated of my life, in a sense. I start thinking of times I could've died, like my car accident and other times and it scares me. At any moment it could happen. I do not lead a healthy life which I know and makes me more scared. I think of how I don't exercise or eat right and it worsens my fear. I stay awake hours on end fighting the urge to think of it but it still comes back to haunt me. I am fine with movies and funerals. I love zombies and learning about things around death. But the actual thought makes my heart hurt...
Advice
- If I had any advice I would say just keep yourself busy. And seek religion. When I do think of death it does help me to pray to God. It helps the pain when I ask for forgiveness. I have always been rude to people but then other times I just want to help everyone. Life needs to be lived to the fullest and that's all I care about for me and everyone in this world.
