It's not dying that actually scares me
- It's the idea that whether you're religious or not you will still exist in some form forever. The forever part is what scares me. I don't want to be around forever but I don't want to stop existing either. I'm 15 now and have gotten really close to having a panic attack on many occasions. I think the first time I started thinking about this I was around 12 or 13 and have had many a sleepless night. I'm at my wit's end with fright and I'm afraid my mom won't believe me and think it's not as bad as it is. But I've started dreading night time and I'm lucky if I can go to sleep without crying at least once. I'm just thankful to know that I'm not alone because I was starting to think I was insane.
- —Guest Guest Rachael
Eternal Darkness
- I am only a 12 year old boy and I am constantly thinking about death. I am afraid of going to sleep as I fear I will never wake up. I also have a fear of my family dying. Just thinking about my little brother just... not here any more makes me cry. Just black for what seems like forever scares the living hell out of me. I don't follow a religion and I wont. I am too afraid to tell my parents about this as I don't think they would help much. Every night for the past 2 years I have been crying myself to sleep. I have never been scared of what it was like before I was born, just after I die, I will be no more. I don't have any problems with killing in video games or movies. Just on a night i'm in darkness and I think about eternal darkness. I can't cope any more! If anyone has a way of coping, please E-Mail me at RyanBannister@hotmail.com
- —Guest Ryan
causes of my fear
- im 35 years old with 3 child , it start when my 2 neighbor at the age of 20 above are having a motorcycle accident and they die. i was shock and realized that life is too short , maybe now or tommorow u or i will die. So now every time i heard that someone die theirs a fear in my mind. Even in TV if the program has topic of death Id even shock. the most worst it affect for me is before i sleep. there is no problem if i have a companion in a day. Even when i remember my age i cannot avoid to think that the average age of life expectancy is 65 to 70 yrs. I also think what happen in my children if im lost. i also think that i miss the innovation enjoying in the future. Im glad that i have god to help when my fear attack. I pray for him and I sleep very well and every morning i wake up i thank him that im still alive.
- —Guest michael
fear
- im not scared of my own death. sometimes i hope when we leave our bodies it all just goes black.but i am really scared of losing my parents i dont know how to cope without them im scared it messes with me everyday of my life. I cant even understand how i don't fear my death but yet im terrified to lose loved ones. its really weird i don't know what to do about it.so i escape by drinking and smoking =(
- —Guest weirdguy
So scared of being dead
- I'm the same I'm 19 and have a daughter who is 16 months and I love her with all my heart it's unreal and when I look at her I cry thinking one say I won't be able to cuddle her or see her and it kills me inside I get panic attacks and just feel sick and it's not been out my mind for a while I'm starting therapy soon so I hope that helps i can't see it though nothing will change were all gonna die at one point
- —nataliexoxoxo
not the unknown
- For me the fear has always been there. You could say that my fear is caused by seeing death at a young age, the first being at five, but no. In fact I even worked at a cemetery for a while and dead people just don't bother me. Closer would be the fear of the unknown. Except I don't see it as unknown. For me it's knowing that things of this earth won't matter any more. It's not even about control. I just can't bear the possibility of having the good or bad taken away. It's just like alzheimer's and that terrifies me.
- —Guest ken
not the unknown
- For me the fear has always been there. You could say that my fear is caused by seeing death at a young age, the first being at five, but no. In fact I even worked at a cemetery for a while and dead people just don't bother me. Closer would be the fear of the unknown. Except I don't see it as unknown. For me it's knowing that things of this earth won't matter any more. It's not even about control. I just can't bear the possibility of having the good or bad taken away. It's just like alzheimer's and that terrifies me.
- —Guest ken
I know
- I am twelve years old, and fear dying. Daily. It is dreadful. I just know, that one day there will be no me, at all. Ever again. Everyone on this earth is such an awesome person and we are all going away. I may miss many great events in this world. Inventions,weddings,births, and so on. It's so scary. What I do is tell my self a story at night so my mind is sidetracked. It is so reassuring that others feel the same way. I love my life and I don't want it gone. My life is all I have. Every night I cry my self to sleep, and sometimes I force myself to stay up until three am. That way I fall asleep right away and don't have to think about it. It, the scary thing. Death. A good snuggle with my cats helps, but then I realize, they are going too. A therapist wouldn't work because I just can't talk about it. I don't know, just because. I have OCD and am very smart. I need help. : ( May you and I and everyone live long and prosper.
- —Guest Eliot
Going Crazy
- To start since childhood I have had a fear of losing loved ones around me....but this passed or was put on hold I guess during my teenage years. I am now married to my high school sweetheart, we have 2 kids boy 15, and girl 10. Last year in July 2010 his grandmother was diagnosed with stage 4 renal cancer which had metted into her bones and spread through out her body ( they released her home with Hospice and needed to be cared for 24/7)....I stepped up because of being a stay at home mom, to take care of her. I stayed from 8 am to 9 pm and her daughter ( my mother-in-law) stayed all night. We alternated the weekends, so each of us could get time in with our families and get caught up on laundry and things. She went very fast. It was no time before this woman who appeared to have nothing wrong with her was diagnosed with cancer. ( Yes I know what you are probably thinking but she went into the hospital with complaints of breathing found a broken bone and it all rolled down hill from
- —crazy4haney
the universe
- My uncle is an astronomer, and so from an early age I was looking at the stars and thinking about the universe; how big it is, how it can't fit in a box and how expansive time and the great yonder is. One night, when I was about 10, this pondering led me to think about death. I completely freaked myself out as I comprehended my own non-existence. I cried myself to sleep for maybe a year. My parents could offer no help. (Their saying my death meant others could live was absolutely no comfort whatsoever!) Since then, with age and time, I have managed to cope. However, I still usually only go to bed when I am so exhausted that I can't keep my eyes open. I have no fear that I am about to die; but I know it is coming. I don't want kids, don't really love anyone. As I age (36now) the clock ticks louder.
- —Guest bobthecat
several good thoughts
- Hey there, it's great to know i'm not the only one having this fear. It started as I saw my uncle get sick and nearly dead in less than 3 years. It makes me fear losinf my relatives and also myself. Well reading here and there didn't take away the fear of the unknown but made me think about other things about death that are less scary. One thing is no matter where you'll ever be nothing or noone can take away your time of existence, you will always have been there. Second thing is we were no physical appearance before birth yet I believe we did exist how else are we here. Maybe this will result in reincarnation or something else. I hope you'll overcome or deprioritize your fears one day. Please contact me I believe it's easier to get over when with people. Abraham_timothy@hotmail.com Tim X
- —Guest Tim
overwhelming fear of ceasing to exist
- I have been suffering like the rest of you with an overwhelming fear of death. Mine becomes very acute when I develop a health problem. I immediately think of the worst case scenario and start worrying. I know this is ridiculous and very detrimental to my health and I tell myself a billion times to stop these thoughts but I can't. The worry about what is wrong with me is really the paralyzing fear of the thought of death. I believe in God and heaven more than I don't but I am certainly not sure and if you have any doubt even 1% then that seems to be little comfort. My fear is that we may just cease to exist. I realize that I should not fear this as there would be no fear in that state because it would be like before you were born. We all know this fear we are suffering is irrational and a waste of time and damaging but we can't control it. Last night after I woke from the few hours of sleep I was able to get I realized when I was asleep I was at peace--maybe death is true peace
- —Guest fear
At a loss...
- I really have no idea as to how I developed this irrational fear of death! I mean, no one close to me has ever died, I have no problems playing video games where I'd never think twice of killing someone/thing, but still I'm overwhelmed by this fear. It's not really the dying part I'm worrying about, it's the fact that I won't be here. Literally, one second here, next second gone. I'm so scared, scared of the endless darkness, the in-ability to move, speak, feel, anything. Just the black. I'm going crazy thinking about this, I've even got to the point where I've started to search for ways to become immortal. I can't bear to think that one day I will just cease to exist. I can't leave this behind, I can't leave me behind. It's getting to the point now where I'm questioning the reason we exist, why do we even try to cure illnesses and stop death if it will come anyway? Why torture ourselves by living long if that only means more will be ripped away from us? Cont..
- —Guest Laura
Exams
- I am 17 and seem to have death anxiety connected to exams. Strange though it seems, the fact that you are constantly being told that "this affects your future" locks this fear into my head and I can't escape it. I don't want to be distracted from it because I know the fear comes back (often worse each time). I think it partially stems from a loss of faith a couple of years ago but I know it existed before then, particularly after family had died. I just want to find a way to handle it permanently :/
- —Guest Anon
The answer is this...
- I doubt you'll post this entry because it's trendy to be a-religious these days in the false confidence that man's wisdom is greater than God's, but anyway, here goes. The answer to all these fears and anxieties lies in Hebrews chapter 2 verse 14-15: "He too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might destroy him who holds the power of death - that is, the devil - and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death."
- —simonieuanevans
